People only ever see the version of you that’s holding it together. They don’t see the split-second vision blur you pretend didn’t happen. They don’t see your leg suddenly give out when you’re walking to the bathroom. They don’t see the numb patch down one side that makes your arm feel like it isn’t yours. They don’t see you squeezing your hands so no one notices the shaking. They don’t see the bladder urgency that hits out of nowhere. They don’t see you freezing in a supermarket aisle because t